Praying

`Today no going work lerh !

`Because mine jiu jiu things ! hmm !!

`When eating till half suddenly mine mum and Grandmum crying there!

`Dhen say what he cant tahan soon !

`After i heard tis , me straight no mood in eating !

`We dhen with cuzz them rush go hospital !

`First time im so big hearing got someone gonna leave !

`Im reli cant acept for it !

`Since small he is so nice to us !

`He bring me go out and give me money to buy comic and everythings i wan !

`When i overnite at his home , he owns dapau those the food i like as mine breakfast !

`That day working in shop , im out of money no money eating !

`I dunnoe why he will appear at there also !

`He asking me wanna eat Mcdonal or not !

`I say no nid because im still full with it !

`He dhen cheat me say he wanna buy a set for self also

`So i agree dhen !

`Who noe ten minit after he send me mine set Mcdonal !

`But just 1 set ! himself dou dun had !

`Yuan lai is cheating me de ! im still havnt thanks him yet !

`Ytd dhen heard the news ! Afternoon i keepon shouting in mine heart !
`I keep on praying for dear jessus dun give up mine jiu jiu and save him !
`I keep repeat and repeat ! lastly it stable already !
`Doctor say now stable but still nid re-check for 3 days !
`So im reli hope mine jiu jiu get well soon !!

`Im glad for those fren who help me praying in real life !
`And also in facebook !
`Im reli reli hope u all continue for it !
`Although just once and few minit !!
`So please TT !!
`Will be so glad for the helping !!

Having Supper with Wilber and PeiRu !

`Last nite im geting phone from mine mum !

`She wanna be back early because wanna pick popo back from hospital !

`She have contact mine uncle in hongkong and get the permisiion !

`Lastly i back around 7pm somethings!!

`After pick popo go home and bath and everythings!

`Me dhen sending she and cuzz to mine home!

`For waiting mine jiu jiu news!

`Around ten wilber calling me to go out!

`We dhen going " Fu Li Xuan " having ketam!

`Reli fully enjoy with it !

`I miss ketam alots !!

`He going back soon ! anywhere !

`All the best ! and peiru is so funny with it !

`Everytime go out sure laught till kisiao ! =) !

- PeiRu -

- Wilber -

- Our dishes -

我很伤心，因为有个小孩对我感到失望！

因为他说我变了？！

变得太多太多，似乎变成另外一个人！

我到底怎么了？

我变得让人好反感，好讨厌！

我错了吗？

抱怨，抱怨，抱怨，抱怨，抱怨，抱怨，抱怨！！

谁能告诉我为什么每天都抱怨？

虽然事情解决了，可是我心里的压力还是很大！

我好想放开，把压力都放完！

我好想大喊，把压力都喊出来！

最近的我，到底怎么了？

亲爱的天父，你能带领我吗？

为什么？

有时我发现过于的抱怨，诉苦……反而让我觉得大家的反感！

为什么，凡是我都不能忍？

为什么，凡是我都不能解决？

为什么， 我会变得这样？

为什么 ， 我那么负面？

今天的我终于病了！

昨天在店里突然间伤风和咳嗽！

哇， 很难受啊！

所以今天就直接不想去做工了！

第一次一直呆在家里，

那里也没去！

在做工的这段时间里，

感谢天父在我肚子饿，不够钱用的时候，

有人会打包给我吃，午餐和晚餐也！

还有零用钱！ 哈哈！

寂寞时，

久不久就会有朋友经过，

来个西里哈拉或陪我吃饭！

整个人也精神了！

突然间觉得有点过意不去，

已经好久没去教堂了，

收到这种待遇，有点惭愧！

但是自己却很感恩， 感恩天父每天的一切！

今天的生病，却让我有更多的休息！

也许，也是一种恩典吧？哈哈哈！

希望在店里剩下的时间，我能战胜一切！

加油！

`Today im free at home !

`Morning im still not feeling well because seen not like going anywhere !

`Dhen meet with wilber and Rongyaw going having lunch at KuaiKeLi !

`Lastly i decided to face and settle mine things by myself !

`Coz me at least wanna face it some days !

`Dhen i do a praying before im going !

`Im praying for God let him decided for me about mine next step !

`Dhen im go meet uncle lucas after that !

`IM trying mine best telling him about what mine feeling and thinking!

`Phieewww happy with he acept it ^^

`Tehee , thanks for it so much !!

`Lalala , feeling so relax after i settle it !

`Going with HuiGor and Augustine bringing bobo go visit PetDoctor at Bettie!

`Apuhss ...

`Jump in to the pool in GCM!

`So long time me have been no swiming liaw wao ! so fun !~

`But .. im tired haha !!

`Hmm , kinda sienx lor for tml cant play niaw ! going work gain !

`So fast one week going finised soon ! waiting next week coming because gonna finish the working !

`Wohoo , hope me all the best ^^

我真的很想变成你们口中的好 ， 给我机会和时间好吗？

我的想法与心情

刚才到绿洲一趟！
虽然在那里后发生了一些些事情！
但是，我还是必须感恩！

感恩天父安排我与Lucas老师有一个交谈的机会！
从那里我知道了一些私人的事情！
感觉不是很好，很失望！
但是还蛮开心！
毕竟我明白了自己的状况！

谢谢Lucas老师给我机会让我明白自己的问题！
虽然从他口里听到这些事情，
心情很不好受，很失望！
毕竟自己觉得在绿洲还不错！
哪里知道从他那里知道自己的问题！
会有点很难接受！
在他关起门时，我就很不好受了！
开始向天父祷告，因为我害怕了！

很快的我也离开了绿洲,
也没多留意下！
原本答应带荣耀和我贤去吃东西！
可是自己已经没心情了，
只好送他们先回家！
对不起！
感谢他们两个在路上安慰我！

后来到师傅家，
听了她给我的一些意见，
并且一直支持我去营会叫我不要放弃这次机会！
同时也告诉我什么应该改和跟我分享一些事情！

因为还是不知道下一步该怎么做，
就找了辉哥！
跟他也聊了很多！
从他们口中的谈话，
他们告诉了我很多我还没想过的东西！

- 我真的准备好参加这次的营会了吗？
- 我了解了真正的自己吗？
- 我选折了自己要的“道路” 吗？
- 我已经有能力带领小孩们吗？
- 我一辈子只要做义工吗？
- 我有能力在营会里看顾他们？
- 以我跟大家的关系，我能照顾他们？
- 参加营会真正的目的?
- 我真的改变了吗？还是跟以前一样？
- 我有信心吗？

还年轻的我要已经要开始做选择了！
冷静下来想想，Lucas老师他们不要我去营会必然有他们的想法！
也许，是我自己还没真正的准备好！
Lucas老师给我的压力也不是没道理的！
毕竟，他顾虑到日后的事情！
当然还年轻的我只顾着现在,没想到未来！

也许很多人认为我到营会纯粹要跟朋友聚会，大家能唱歌玩在一起！
可是我都没那么想过！
这起回来我都把焦点放在这两个营会里！
我真的真的很想参加，很想帮忙！
我只是单纯的因为第一次参加后很喜欢，就想参加下去而已！
也许自己的表现和准备还不是很好！
真的有点后悔自己没有很努力改变！

= 在营会来临前，我还来得及吗？
= 我到底该如何回复Lucas老师？
= 知道了自己的问题后，我以后应该如何帮助小孩？
= 我该怎么改变我自己？
= 我应该参加这起的营会吗？

我其实很烦很累了，
但是听了师傅，辉哥，Lucas老师的感想，
我觉得自己要改变，要加强的空间还是很多！
要带领小孩们，自己没做好准备怎么参加？
感恩他们让我知道事情的重要性！

我真的依然想澄清 “ 我真的没做过！”
毕竟我的努力也许还不是很明显，
我会加油！虽然不知道小孩，朋友，老师对我的想法如何！
但是我会努力的，
就算下次不是为了营会，为了自己也好！
我要改！
我真的很想参加营会，
但是我不想自己因为老师们可怜我而给我参加，
然而我希望是因为自己的表现人得到参加营会的机会！

以上是我今天的感想！
真的希望大家读了我的部落格后，
可以告诉我还有什么需要改，
我还有什么不好,
我哪里不对，
好吗？
我会多多检点的！

谢谢Lucas老师给依然我机会想清楚！
谢谢Marlene师傅和辉哥的宝贵时间！
谢谢小孩们的安慰！
谢谢天父让我有机会面对自己的问题！

不管最后我变得怎样，我会努力的！
希望我没有那么差！

Sorry because have been delete one of the post because of mine bad attitube in it !
But , im kinda wanna save what Marlene shih fu telling me in coment !
So im planing to cut and paste at here as a example for mine always Always !!

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Yung, shi fu shares with you a verse Hui Gor always mention oh: 提摩太前書 4:12 不可叫人小看你年輕． 總要在言語、 行為、 愛心、 信心、 清潔上． 都作信徒的榜樣。

ask yourself
1. are you young? YES
2. How is your 言語? Seems ok.. except sometime the words are bad in the blog....
3. 行為? No clubbing, not bringing friends to those places,no smoking, no gaduh, no talk bad words behind...... Wow, seems not bad.
4. 愛心? What is the purpose of helping others in camp?
5. 信心? Do you have confident.. that god already change you to a better person?
6. Purity life? 清潔上
7. 都作信徒的榜樣; Does everyone know you are a Christian or have you accepted Jesus as your personal savior?

Praying for you. Focus on the target, not the obstacle, and when you do so, the obstacle will become blurry and will gone in short time :)

Hiahx ! so sienx ! why anyhow i praying until last the answer also same !
I reli just can go one of the camp !
Abit sad and moodless lorh !

Dun k how i rajin how i trying ..
One same is one but not two !! how come other ppl can ?!!
Always in miri de ppl not same with those studying outside de!
They can anytime going center , of coz relationship more good !
Dear god , im reli keep so hard keep on praying to u with it !
How come u dun let me join both of them?

Like that still nvm ,
During working u keep aranging me working under tis situation !
I dun noe what main reason u wan me learn about ..
But stop it im reli reli on stress !!
First time feeling i beter use the Stress in exam beter u noe !
Im keep on tank and tahan !
How long me can tahan until ?

I noe im worst ! im laoya im useless !
But what can do worh ?
Im coming back miri main reason reli just for that!
Now what also dun had liaw!
Sad no ppl noe also !
What the difrent if im staying in kl ?

If reli can , I reli hope im not the ahyung in the world !
I dun reli wish to Fan so much of the things!
Those stress make me feeling wanna brust and gila !

I RELI NO MOOD RIGHT NOW , DUN TRY ON MINE LIMIT !

`Im feeling myself so useless u noe ?!!!

`Everyone just think about me when they nid mine help ?!!

`When no nid dhen how ? FORGOT ME ? IGNORE ME ?!!

`Wtffff im so sienx right now TT

First time !

`Waoo ! me first time feeling im so good u noe !!

`This few day im out of money oledi !

`Still owns lee and hilda money tim !

`Aikx poor till dun noe wan how xplain !!

`Just now going home ,

`Brother nagging wanna eat supper because hungry !

`Mine wallet left rm5 ?!! what to do ?!!

`Popo havnt sleep yet , me just can dapau 2 only ?!!

`Swt swt !!

`Lastly me decided dapau one mee for brother and kuehtiaw for my popo !

`Hmm , how about me ? havnt diner also since back from working !!

`Me dhen go kitchen cook maggie mee and free myself two half boil egg =)

`Wohoo , feel so proud for myself ^^!!

`Although not what special things , but im HAPPY !

不知道为什么，我对你的关心似乎没有以前那样了！

以前我对你的关心真的很好很好！

可是，你却不懂得珍惜！

曾经有人告诉我说：

“ 你太好了到处关心人，如果那个人不懂得珍惜，你是时候收回你的关心，把它们分给更有需要的人！”

这句话我实现了！从那天你没做到你的承诺，我就已经放弃你了！

不再找你，不再问候你..

因为你给我的感觉好像我是透明的！

今天从你的口气中，感觉到你的后悔！

总是问我为什么这样，

我只能说“一切太迟了，你都错过了”

我累了，也许太好的朋友我们做不到！

但是普通的我觉得还可以吧？

曾经你被别人讨厌，我为你说好话！

现在，他们再说什么，我只能左耳进右耳出！

希望你的后悔会然你改善，以后的日子我拭目以待！

`Come share one photo with u all hahaha !!

`Its mine primary photo tagg by mine fren in facebook !!

`Waoo hahah , everyone is chaging so much u noe hahha !!

`Hmm , facebook reli nice erh !

`Because of this web , it help us gather everyone back !!

`Waoo , nearly all of us gather back and chating in facebook hahah !!

`Guess which one is me muahhhaa

Off for Today ! :D

`Huhu , im not going for work today !! hahah !

`Because uncle giving me offdays ^^

`So happy and im been waiting for so long for mine holiday u noe !

`Ishhh .. hahah !!

`Today early in the morning dhen get Wilber sms !

`Asking me go breakfast together !

`But .. me so late just reply him hahah !!

`Telling him will be going meet him later dhen continue sleep !

`Sudnely dhen Melvin.Phuah turn ! lolx !

`Asking me go makan also waoo ! hahah!!

`After preparing myself and pick them

`We going having dimsum at Mega !

`Having lots fun at there although just 3 ppl because talking lots crap hahah !!

`Sending Mcd meal for sumone in Riam Secondry haha !

`Its was mine first time being there u noe lolx !!

`Saw so much fren too hahah !!

`After that pick lee and hilda!

`Going watch 2012 in parkson haha !!

`Lester joining us too !!

`Before watching movie ,

`Having some ice in IceCity waoo ! hahaha!

`The weather is reli so hot until i wanna go there haha!

`Mine favourite place btw !!

` 2012 the movie

`Really so nice and intresting lolx!

`If can see in Kl cinema will be so nice i think muahhaha !!

`When finished movie dhen rush back liaw!

`Coz lee parents rushing and Lester going art class

`Wating for StormWarrior ! :D

`Woohoo i think will be like it so much !!

`So fast dhen one days passing gain !

`Gonna work gain for tml TT

`Haihx , sad for cant join them going out together!

`Me always miss so much of the chance u noe !!

`Hiahx .. hopeless

- Mine drinks for today -

- The Menu haha -

- Our 's Ice -

- What a nice movie -

- Waiting for this coming -

Marlene师傅！ 突然间我好想跟你做卡片 :D

哈哈，不知道为什么？特别想写部落格！

好久好久没有好好的坐下来写了！

不知不觉做工也做了三天咯！

感觉还好吧！

每一间公司都会出现“公司风暴”

今天你说我坏话，明天我不爽你！

今天你讲我，明天我讲你！

都不知道要吵到几时？

再过几天SPM来咯！

终于……

看到Ong他们对朋友依依不舍的样子！

让我想起去年的我们！

起先考完试后还会联络！

现在？都不知道消失到哪里去了！

哈哈，到外面读书后!

反而以前根本很少一起聊天的朋友，

却因为一起到外面读书反而聚在一起！

真的很奇妙！

去读书前，我每天晚上都祷告！

祷告说，希望我在外面读书！

能从新建立我的朋友群，

然而天父也实现了我的愿望！

让我在吉隆坡有一群新的朋友！

虽然他们一样吵吵闹闹，

可是最后还是会很开心的在一起！

我也慢慢了改变我自己的坏习惯！

以前的我动不动就要按电话！

现在，我一整天没按都不觉得奇怪哈哈！

反而觉得是好事来的！

我到底该不该早回去吉隆坡？

我很烦啊！会也不是，不会也不是！

哎哟！烦死烦死！

好吧！我好像写了很多废话！

嘻嘻！没关系吧！

看了后，就得留言！ 哈哈！

`there are so many left over post i havnt post out !

`Im feeling so lazy for update it gain ! apuhs !

`Reli so sienx u noe ! coz stuck so much !

`Who ask me lazy ! :x

`Hmm , today working back liaw!

`Now dhen i rmb the feeling working!

`Isshh , not reli like it larh !sienx and tired !!

`Haihx !! what to do ?!!

`Hmm , ytd having a gathering at Ruming home

`Waoo thx everyone for preparing so much food tehee!!

`One more things i proud for myself !

`At last .. me pull jor 9 person join luzhou camp tehee !!

`Lalala , happy ^^

`Hope mine praying will coming soon on the camp day TT

`Hmm , still got 20 days to go ! dun noe how i stay alive !

`But .. just hope me done praticle book faster ! x_X !!

`Miss me ? look for me at the shop hahah !! ^^

`hmm , i dun noe self have been lost from msn , blogger and facebook for how long !!

`Now sit down and thnk quietly !! me reli reli let them grow mushroom too much liaw !!

`Im juz back from Marlene shih fu home having a suprise for she !!

`Im reli sleepy with it .. but cant sleep coz ..

`I eat too much already laa OMGG !! hahaha !!

`Anywhere .. will post mine blog for tomorow ^^

`Rmb keep follow mine blog yea !

`Happy birthday to YuenLyn and Marlene Shih fu =)